Dream of Struggle

So one thing about me is that i rarely have dreams, and when I do dream, I wake up knowing I had a dream, but not remember what it was about. Well last night I had three dreams and remembered them all. And coincidently, each one was about something I am struggling with in my life right now.

Dream 1: The Wedding Dress

I believe the setting was some kind of church. It was my wedding day. I was marrying the guy of my dreams - of course - not mentioning names. So it started off in this big room with my grandmother and mother and I was wearing this ridiculous looking, red, chinese patterned, tight dress or robe; whatever those chinese outfits are called. I asked, "Why am I wearing this?" They told me that we all were so busy we didnt get me a wedding dress, so they figured this would make me stand out the most. (Ya stand out and look ridiculous) I was SOO upset! My wedding day and I didnt even have a wedding dress! Then I was warned I needed to be out there in 15 minutes. So i started panicking and saying how there must have been some kind of white dress around. So in this big room of the church, I opened my closet, no clue why it was there, and pulled out 5 nice summer dresses, all white. (I dont even own one white dress, but I had them) And while we were looking at them, one asked, do you have your vows ready with you. I responded, "My vows? I'm not sure if I wrote my vows!" So I then started saying my vows right there. They were pretty nice vows. Then I was warned that I needed to be out and ready now!! And I hadnt even changed yet. So I was freaking out...then my dream changed.

Dream 2: Feelings of disrespect

So I went to a friend of mines house. She led me and my good friend through her house, and when we walked out on her porch, it led to a HUGE backyard that was supposed to be part of her school's backyard, and everyone from her school was there. Then she said oh theres, we will call him Liam (an ex). And said oh I should warn you now, he has a really huge hickie on his neck from this girl (cant remember her name). Well, I was getting really upset cause of course he would do that when I was there, and started saying that obviously the relationship meant nothing to you, you said you never liked her then you go do this, how could you do this! I was so mad!! But I don't even have feelings for the guy.. it was pretty strange - Then my dream switched again.

Dream 3: That looks awful!

So me and my friends had just speant the whole day somewhere with this huge group. It was night time, and we were the last ones to get on the school bus. I ended up having to sit by my friends sister, who i hardly talk to. Well I looked away for like 10 seconds, and when I looked back, it was this girl that I worked with instead, who I dont like very much. And she just started putting lots of make-up on me...stopped for a second and asked.."is it ok that im doing this?'. I just said, "i guess so." so she continued, and when she was finished, it looked really nice, at least thats what myself and everyone in the dream thought, when really it looked awful. Then that dream ended....


Dreams of struggles? Dream 1 and 2. Different guys, both who have some kind of place in my heart. I kind of miss guy 2 from time to time, I just liked spending time with him, but thats not where my actual feelings lie, Guy 1, I like alot. He is absolutely amazing, not to mention such a man of God. And with dream 3, the struggle is that I am always fighting to not wear make-up. Be happy with who I am, not try to look like something/someone Im not. To Try and Be happy with how God made me :)