There really aren't words that would describe my weekend.
Altitude - the lift that lasts.
A christian conference filled with worship, youth and some of the most incredible speakers.
God has really spoke to me this week on so many personal levels and I pray he continues to do so. I couldn't even tell anyone how great that church itself is; you would need to just go and experience. I do not even know what to say right now - it is really irratating. I wish I had some kind of powers to let everyone feel what I feel after this weekend, then you'd all know. So I can just say that I learned alot, and I have no way to explain it.
God is magnificent beyond imaginable!
Sep 27, 2008
Sep 25, 2008
Birthday! Birthday! Birthday!
Friday night! Birthday Night! Friday Night! WOOT WOOT
So tonight I am celebrating my birthday a day early with the family. Dinner at King's Buffet! I am going to happily stuff myself. Tomorrow is with the buds. Edgar, Shawna, James and Tyler, Some of my closest friends, are going to lunch with me and a little mini golf (glow in the dark) afterwards. It's not what you do, it is who you are with. That night I am going to this huge chrisitan conference, which also carries over to the saturday, all day pretty much. It is going to be a pretty rockin weekend. Oh and I currently just spent more money on clothes and boots, too much money might I add. Man I need to stop that!
Happy birthday to me!
So tonight I am celebrating my birthday a day early with the family. Dinner at King's Buffet! I am going to happily stuff myself. Tomorrow is with the buds. Edgar, Shawna, James and Tyler, Some of my closest friends, are going to lunch with me and a little mini golf (glow in the dark) afterwards. It's not what you do, it is who you are with. That night I am going to this huge chrisitan conference, which also carries over to the saturday, all day pretty much. It is going to be a pretty rockin weekend. Oh and I currently just spent more money on clothes and boots, too much money might I add. Man I need to stop that!
Happy birthday to me!
Sep 19, 2008
Buffalo Buffalo Buffalo Buffalo Buffalo Buffalo Buffalo Buffalo
Buffalo Buffalo Buffalo Buffalo Buffalo Buffalo Buffalo Buffalo
Did you know that is a grammatically correct sentence. Don't believe me? Google It.
These past three days were some of the greatest ever. My friend and I spent three days in bufallo shopping. I love being away from everything and everyone - although man did it have its costs $$. It was just fun and stress free. Laughter just filled my spirit and I forgot about any family problems back at home. My highlight of the week would be buying 1) stiraphone swords and fighting in the hotel room and 2) buying glow in the dark swords, braclets and necklaces and fighting in the dark hotel room. And Auntie Anne, how I love you! Your warm buttery cinnamon flavored pretzels just melt in my mouth. Why doesn't canada have the same perks as the US? Cheap food, lower tax and some of the most tasty treats. Mmm. I am glad to be back in the Can though - my life beckons to me.
Can rules the Am!!
Did you know that is a grammatically correct sentence. Don't believe me? Google It.
These past three days were some of the greatest ever. My friend and I spent three days in bufallo shopping. I love being away from everything and everyone - although man did it have its costs $$. It was just fun and stress free. Laughter just filled my spirit and I forgot about any family problems back at home. My highlight of the week would be buying 1) stiraphone swords and fighting in the hotel room and 2) buying glow in the dark swords, braclets and necklaces and fighting in the dark hotel room. And Auntie Anne, how I love you! Your warm buttery cinnamon flavored pretzels just melt in my mouth. Why doesn't canada have the same perks as the US? Cheap food, lower tax and some of the most tasty treats. Mmm. I am glad to be back in the Can though - my life beckons to me.
Can rules the Am!!
Sep 2, 2008
Family Breaks and Heart Aches
Work Sucked! Who knew that waiting for me when I got home was an invitation to have dinner with my parents and brother. It was a great dinner - steak, potatoes and corn on the cob. There was even great discussion during the whole thing. Who knew that after dinner we would all find ourselves playing bid euchre - there was so much laughter. It may be bad most of the time, but I am thankful for this one night I was given. It is a night like this that gives me a bit of ease.
A night like this won't change how I feel though - fear. It won't convince me that everything will be fine; I'm not so sure it will. I have been fighting the past few months to go see this christian councellor. I at first thought, out of everyone if my family, I am one of the last people that require a councellor. Maybe that was pure stubborness. The past few days, I feel so inadequate. I feel like I am not good enough as a person - not smart enough, not pretty enough (I know sounds lame), not enjoyable to be around - as well as I feel like I am not good enough as a christian, no matter how hard I try. And one of the hardest things to admit and face, someone I care about so much, makes me feel even more inadequate as a person when I am with him or talk to him, but at the same time, this person is special in my life just because of who he is and what he represents in my life. He does say stuff that makes me feel really special, and comments traits that he seems to find are rare - and he can be such a great encouragement - but then things are said that make me feel like im not good enough as a person and christian - basically makes me question myself. It can get real upsetting - bottom line - I think a councellor would be great just because they will be neutral, a christian and I can just let out how I feel - it could be a real encouragement. I just know I can't let this all build up - everything that has been going on for the last two years.
A night like this won't change how I feel though - fear. It won't convince me that everything will be fine; I'm not so sure it will. I have been fighting the past few months to go see this christian councellor. I at first thought, out of everyone if my family, I am one of the last people that require a councellor. Maybe that was pure stubborness. The past few days, I feel so inadequate. I feel like I am not good enough as a person - not smart enough, not pretty enough (I know sounds lame), not enjoyable to be around - as well as I feel like I am not good enough as a christian, no matter how hard I try. And one of the hardest things to admit and face, someone I care about so much, makes me feel even more inadequate as a person when I am with him or talk to him, but at the same time, this person is special in my life just because of who he is and what he represents in my life. He does say stuff that makes me feel really special, and comments traits that he seems to find are rare - and he can be such a great encouragement - but then things are said that make me feel like im not good enough as a person and christian - basically makes me question myself. It can get real upsetting - bottom line - I think a councellor would be great just because they will be neutral, a christian and I can just let out how I feel - it could be a real encouragement. I just know I can't let this all build up - everything that has been going on for the last two years.
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