Officially 2009, the years just fly by.
It was a great new year. Definitly topped last.
I spent most of the night with my wonderful boyfriend and my amazing grandparents.
At around 10:30, he and I left for a party where his friends were. It was such a compromise, both going to the places one another wanted to be. I loved ringing in the New Year with him. Shame that I missed it with my other friends, so hopefully next year everyone can just mesh. One Big Party! Oh that would be cool!
Back to work tomorrow after being off for like 8 days - ahh I dont want to go back.

So this new boyfriend. Yes it always seems like I have a new boyfriend. And yes I was set on dating only a christian. But then he came along and after all the crap i've been through, being with him made me extremely happy - most dont approve, but most dont understand how unhappy i've been. To my surprise, when I told that to my grandparents and my brother, they actually understood.
Im scared though. I feel vulnerable. I hate feeling vulnerable - I hate showing people my emotions and my weeker side. Usually something like this would scare me away, but my feelings for him are too strong and in this I want to stay. I have a new feeling - a strong feeling for him. I want it to stay there forever - I want him to be there forever. It is a new feeling - not like the others I thought I strongly liked.

I actually feel happy.
It is such a nice change.