For you For Him For them

For you:
After all this time, I just want to be your friend. It seems like you keep telling me these randoms to impress me. STOP! I really dont want to hear it and feel like you are trying to prove yourself. I dont need you to. I want to be your every day friend. You are a great person; you dont have to prove yourself to anyone. Maybe I am over-reacting, Im sorry, but it is how I feel.

For Him:
I'm sorry I let it get here. I'm sorry I chose to do it my way. It is never how I wanted it-yet I let it happen anyways. I dont feel good about it one bit. I'm just filled with regret. But the good thing is, I know you forgive me for it. But now, I just want to break free for you. I want to put things aside that block me from you. I want to put you first, above all the rest. I want to live for you, do things for you, speak for you. I want to become more and more like you ever single day. I know I am going to struggle, but please, help me. Bring people into my life that you want in it. Show me where to go and what to do. I want to do it for you.

For Them:
Just grow up! Stop doing what you are doing. Stop thinking what you are thinking. And stop being how you are. Stop with the foolishness, the immaturity, the lack of trust, the lack of respect and the lack of faith - both of you. Its exhausting and it just creates pain. I can say over and over again a better way to do it-I can say what needs to be said. But it doesnt matter, cause you will never learn - - - ever. You have had enough time to learn, you have had enough people to help you, but only He can help you now. But shamefully, you wont let him. It saddens me and everyone around me that knows what goes on. I cant wait to just escape from it. A burden lifted off. Sometimes, this is what holds me back-this is what makes me cry-this is what makes some of my days so much harder-this is what has slowly killed me inside. And YOU, YOU especially, you dont realize you are such a big part of this, you point fingers at everyone else and do not realize your own faults had a huge start in this whole thing. But there obviously isn't an end, because a brand new uproar always comes up. Things keep coming....But I dont want them too :( I feel like I cant take it. But It is only by Him I have gotten through this and ended up how I am, and He will keep me through it.